alright, most of the time i don't read the drivel this accident waiting to happen says, but today i'm in a pissy mood, and i juHst don't give a shit.
first off, firearms are one of the more expensive hobbies you can get into. i used to shoot trap a lot, on shooting days, it was anywhere from $20-$50 to shoot at my own place. and that was with the cheap winchester universal shells. bitching about money in any hobby it shooting yourself in the foot and asking for trouble.
second, how in the bowel of whatever deity governs firearms do you have one? from an early age, i was taught that all firearms are loaded until you physically open the chamber and check for a round. even then, never treat a firearm casually. you're taking about how much of a dope smoker you are, and you keep a loaded firearm in your house. that is somewhere between purposefully falling on a running chainsaw, and trying your hand at explosives with no training in the stupidity scale. you should be called in to the local authorities and hauled off. i know now that guns and i do well on shooting days, but i took responsibility and have my guns locked in a place that i don't know after my psychological incident. i suggest you do the same. i'm glad i don't live in florida, i honestly fear what you would do while high with a loaded weapon. i feel sorry for your family and the local authorities, you are not fit to even hold an empty shell, much less a loaded gun.
third, you have made yourself the whipping boy here. your own comments have lead to every single bash thread involving you. if you don't even have the responsibility to say "i screwed up, i'm wrong" then you have no place in the modern world. a real adult takes what's coming to them. if i screw up on a fact or a comment, i own that. you obviously lack that capacity, what you say on a near daily basis is insulting to say the least. your life path is so screwed from your statements here, that you need to put down the pipe and seriously re-consider what you are doing and why. the gut-check of wrecking your own life should be enough to wrench you out into reality, if not, then i'm truly sorry for you.