Chris_The_Battery_Man
I wanna be Dave
Wasn't going to post here, but I figured after the for sale thread I will be posting soon, I will be getting PM's. So a copy and paste from ORCRC. I will still be around on the boards. Just not longer RC'ing for a while...
Much like I had to with Haley a while back, I have reached the point where I must make a decision. Something I have contemplated for well over a year, but never could bring myself to do.
So this is my fare well to you guys. The drive home from Dave's gave me a lot of time to think as it generally does. This hobby has brought me a lot of joy, but caused a lot of problems. I feel that I have put my future on hold, and ruined a lot to do this.
It's not the hobby, it's my addiction to it. I have probably spent well over $10,000 on this in the last 2 years I have competed, and have absolutely nothing to show for it, except a hobby room full of things that are of no real value. Since 05/06, when I got into it, I have helped ruin 2 relationships, put off paying off debt, neglected my pets, friends, family, health, and other things that should come before RC. Anything I planned or related, had to work around RC. My vehicles had to be able to comfortably fit RC's. I have put almost 30,000 miles on my truck this year alone..... to RC.
There are other elements about the recent changes in the competing that are pushing me out also. But this is a personal battle I must deal with first and foremost. I am completely ashamed, and disappointed in myself for letting a "Hobby" become an addiction, and ruin a lot of things for me. I cant thank enough, all the people that have helped in any form of the word. Truly great-full, from the bottom of my black heart :mrgreen: . Although most of the hard times, that this has helped me through, have really rooted to the addiction in this, I still appreciate no less, anyone whom has helped in any way. Talking to other guys in the club that really only do this to help em through the hard times in their lives, I know how good it feels to come out and forget about the problems at home(Or the voices in the back of your head :mrgreen: )
For those that know me a little better than just Chris The Battery Man, you would know that I am a black or white person. I either want it all, or nothing to do with it. That's how it's always been. So this is why I must get out completely. Hanging up the radio for now will not suffice. We have a funny way of justifying things in our heads. Telling ourselves we need this or that. But the cold hard black and white fact is that I don't NEED this. In fact, to better my future, and stop putting my "Real life" goals on hold, I NEED to let go.
I want to start my own business doing photography, video, and graphic design. Then move to Bend when the time is right. So that will be the next phase in my life. I actually may still come out to the comps and shoot some. Action shots are fun anyhow.
I am not going to go any further than that, because I am sure most of you, don't care. But for those that do, and I consider friends, I bid you adieu. Also, I request that you don't PM, Text, call, or email me regarding this, unless I have already talked to you about it. It will only make it harder, and I wont stick to my guns(cause you guys are too cool to wanna leave :mrgreen: ) This upsets me literally to tears, but I will hopefully feel relief in the near future.....
Look for a for sale thread soon. I am not looking for charity, but if you wanna buy some of my Sh!t, and help contribute to the next part of my life, I wont complain
Much like I had to with Haley a while back, I have reached the point where I must make a decision. Something I have contemplated for well over a year, but never could bring myself to do.
So this is my fare well to you guys. The drive home from Dave's gave me a lot of time to think as it generally does. This hobby has brought me a lot of joy, but caused a lot of problems. I feel that I have put my future on hold, and ruined a lot to do this.
It's not the hobby, it's my addiction to it. I have probably spent well over $10,000 on this in the last 2 years I have competed, and have absolutely nothing to show for it, except a hobby room full of things that are of no real value. Since 05/06, when I got into it, I have helped ruin 2 relationships, put off paying off debt, neglected my pets, friends, family, health, and other things that should come before RC. Anything I planned or related, had to work around RC. My vehicles had to be able to comfortably fit RC's. I have put almost 30,000 miles on my truck this year alone..... to RC.
There are other elements about the recent changes in the competing that are pushing me out also. But this is a personal battle I must deal with first and foremost. I am completely ashamed, and disappointed in myself for letting a "Hobby" become an addiction, and ruin a lot of things for me. I cant thank enough, all the people that have helped in any form of the word. Truly great-full, from the bottom of my black heart :mrgreen: . Although most of the hard times, that this has helped me through, have really rooted to the addiction in this, I still appreciate no less, anyone whom has helped in any way. Talking to other guys in the club that really only do this to help em through the hard times in their lives, I know how good it feels to come out and forget about the problems at home(Or the voices in the back of your head :mrgreen: )
For those that know me a little better than just Chris The Battery Man, you would know that I am a black or white person. I either want it all, or nothing to do with it. That's how it's always been. So this is why I must get out completely. Hanging up the radio for now will not suffice. We have a funny way of justifying things in our heads. Telling ourselves we need this or that. But the cold hard black and white fact is that I don't NEED this. In fact, to better my future, and stop putting my "Real life" goals on hold, I NEED to let go.
I want to start my own business doing photography, video, and graphic design. Then move to Bend when the time is right. So that will be the next phase in my life. I actually may still come out to the comps and shoot some. Action shots are fun anyhow.
I am not going to go any further than that, because I am sure most of you, don't care. But for those that do, and I consider friends, I bid you adieu. Also, I request that you don't PM, Text, call, or email me regarding this, unless I have already talked to you about it. It will only make it harder, and I wont stick to my guns(cause you guys are too cool to wanna leave :mrgreen: ) This upsets me literally to tears, but I will hopefully feel relief in the near future.....
Look for a for sale thread soon. I am not looking for charity, but if you wanna buy some of my Sh!t, and help contribute to the next part of my life, I wont complain
