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my daddy...

Del Montess

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Some of you have met my dad at local comps or AWCC a couple years ago.

In 2005 he was diagnosed with colon cancer and has been valiantly kicking it's ass ever since (going in and out of remission). 2 years ago (almost to the day), it came back, as stage 4 (in lymph, bladder, lung, and liver). He got treatment at City of Hope, and was doing impressively well.

Weekend before last, we took a family trip to Solvang and had an AMAZING time. Monday, he was having trouble breathing and his room air oxygen saturation (which needs to be well above 90, above 95 is optimal), was between 50 and 70 (which is really, really bad). We called an ambulance and went to the ER (at the hospital I work at), and he was admitted to ICU. We spent 3 days there (and my best friend was his nurse all 3 days, which was wonderful).

We were hoping that maybe it was an infection like pneumonia that would clear up with antibiotics, so I took his CT scan cd down to City of Hope and spoke to his oncologists who read it, and said that they thought it looked like lung cancer that had gotten completely out of control (my words, they were much more eloquent and less blunt), and that it probably wasn't reversible. So after a few days of antibiotics with no sign of improvement, we took him home Thursday on hospice. He had a very comfortable night thanks to my syringes full of dilaudid (it's like morphine on crack).

The chaplain came to pray with us early Friday afternoon, and as she was finishing the Lord's Prayer (we were all circled around my dad praying), he took his final breath. It is a blessing knowing that he went surrounded by family, and very comfortably (I had just given him another dose of dilaudid), which was what he had asked for.

My dad and I have always been really close; I'm an only child so I never had to share my parents' attention or time... which means that the three of us were an incredibly close family. I'm so thankful that Jake is part of our family and it isn't just my mom and I-- we're both so scattered right now that I think everything would just fall apart.

I'm not really sure why I'm posting this... I think I just need to get it all out. I didn't want to post sooner because I didn't want to take anything away from Chip's passing (which I think was remarkably close in time to my dad...) I hope they meet up there with Jake's dad and wheel some freaking sweet trails in the sky.
 
Sorry for your loss, he is in a better place an watching over you. You now have the ultimate spotter.
 
Let it out Jess. "thumbsup". Sorry to hear. And of course they are wheelin some good times. 8)
 
Sorry to hear Jess. Lost my Dad in 1974 when i was 13 and still think of him every day. He will always be with you. Prayers out for you and your Mom. Remember all the great things and smiles will always come back to you.

Mark and family
 
my most heartfelt condolonces mate, I and (unforunatley) a lot of us know what you went through and are going through in the times after.
You're dad was a very lucky man to have you adminstering pain relief in that way in that time. Words cannot say how much I respect you for doing that for him. My dad was a tetraplegic (somewhere between para & quadraplegic) with very limited physical feeling, and he felt EVERYTHING in his last weeks.
 
Thanks guys. The last two days I felt relatively normal, and was wondering if maybe after all the "prep" time we had had, I maybe had gotten to acceptance a little faster. then today I woke up crying and knew that everyone was right, it'll get better and worse, back and forth.

Prayers and thoughts are much appreciated... and klabeaume, I hadn't thought of it that way, that is a very cool statement-- thank you.

Slowlearner, it was a blessing to be able to use what I'm good at to make him comfortable. I think that if I had not had that opportunity, I would not have been as confident that he was not in pain (I'm a bit of a control freak, I don't really trust anyone else's work, lol). It was hard basically being my dad's hospice nurse though-- but I am just glad to know that he didn't suffer, which was what he kept telling us-- that he was not afraid of dieing (he had literally died twice previously, and said it was the most warm, loving, comforting feeling he had ever known), he was scared of suffering or being alone-- thank God he had to deal with neither of those.
It hurts to hear that your dad had to endure pain like that, I hope he found comfort and peace at the end.

thanks again for letting me get it off my chest gents.
 
I am just glad to know that he didn't suffer, which was what he kept telling us-- that he was not afraid of dieing


It hurts to hear that your dad had to endure pain like that, I hope he found comfort and peace at the end.

Jess. that underlined is also a huge plus in you corner mate, to know there was peace of mind before the end of the living and peace in passing.
Dad said to me on the day before, he was not afraid, he'd accepted it and being a devote christian, I think his words on the afterlife was "being presented to God naked as a babe and bowing", not looking forward to it, just accepting of his lot in life. That made things a bit easier for those of us left behind.
scott
 
I feel ya RC bro, lost my Dad last may. There was a time when I thought nothing, I mean nothing, would be the same ever again without my Dad. But we fight through it realizing how many before us have lived through this. It was good for you to get this out.
I was at a Scale GTG after my dad passed and club members 70+ year old dad had begun attending, trail driving right along with us. I noticed him falling behind as his battery took a dive. I handed him my remote and said wanna drive mine, he took me up on it without hesitation. Watching him have as much fun as us driving these little trucks around I had to walk off and take a few to gather myself. I would have given anything, ANYTHING, to have had my Dad standing there at that moment.
 
Its been a rough week. Cancer sucks.

I'm grateful for having been known Bob and sharing the time with him that I did. We'll always miss him, but I know that he is in a better place now.

Here's a pic from right before his Losi caught fire at AWCC :ror:
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Jess and Bob in Yosemite a few years ago.

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Very sorry for your loss. I was holding my dads hand when he took his final breath. That was 9 yrs ago and I think about him everyday. I know that my best friend/hero is watching down on me and my family. As I'm sure yours is.

Godbless, I wish you and your family the best during this time.
 
i feel for you in your loss as i also lost my father to health issues stemming from emphysema and heart disease , i know they are in a better place watching over us . the pain of loss does get easier to live with but it never goes away . always remember the good times no matter how small .

too all those that still have there parents in there life enjoy them while you can in the time that they have left .
 
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